Brainfart: OCD

The term OCD (Obssesive Compulsive Disorder) or claiming to have OCD is used often to describe people’s meticulosity these days. I always encounter people say that they’re “OCD”, “OC” or “Oc-Oc” when it comes to being compelled to organize or arrange certain things that are in disarray even in public. I myself do that. I always find myself arranging grocery items in the shelves of supermarkets, or putting back items that are out of place (y’know those things that people finally decide not to get, or maybe saw something better but are in a hurry or too lazy to put it back where it originally was).

Some find it irksome when normal people use the term OCD/OC to describe that compulsion. They find it insulting for actual people diagnosed with OCD as it is defined as a serious mental illness.

Obsessive Compulsive Disorderis a mental disorder where people have to check things repeatedly and or obsess about a certain thing repeatedly. And it’s something they cannot fully control. 

I had a phase this year where I watched the UK show entitled Obssessive Compulsive Cleaners where people, some diagnosed with OCD and some who are just obsessive cleaners, are given the challenge to clean out people with dirty places.

These people with dirty places are hoarders whom are either suffering from depression or are disabled. In conclusion, both types of people end up helping each other which I guess is the goal of the show.

I guess I understand those people who use the term OC to justify their sense of meticulousness but I also understand those people who find offense when that word is used for that context.

So I guess it’s safer to use the words or call themselves meticulous, particular or nitpicky. 

Instead of saying,”I’m very OC about my things.” Just say, “I’m very particular/meticulous about my things.”

OR plain, just call yourself a perfectionist or a neat freak because having OCD is way more than just being organized.


30 on 10/20


I’m officially 30 and here are 15 things I am grateful for in this life.

  1. I can eat what I want.
  2. I have a husband whom I love and vice versa.
  3. I have friends who are there for me.
  4. My parents are healthy and alive.
  5. I have a nice place to live in.
  6. I have a car that can take me to places.
  7. I can drive by myself.
  8. I can travel to other countries.
  9. I can climb mountains and appreciate the beauty of it.
  10. I have my dogs.
  11. I have a convenient job.
  12. I have shared pain.
  13. I care less about society.
  14. I care more for the environment.
  15. I am able.

Wherever life takes me from here, I will forever be grateful.

Jealous of the Angels

This is a song dedicated to my Sister-in-Law Ate Mary Ann F. Lea who passed away 40 days ago. Missing her so much.

Jealous of the Angels

I didn’t know today would be our last
Or that I’d have to say goodbye to you so fast
I’m so numb, I can’t feel anymore
Prayin’ you’d just walk back through that door
And tell me that I was only dreamin’
You’re not really gone as long as I believe

There will be another angel
Around the throne tonight
Your love lives on inside of me,
And I will hold on tight
It’s not my place to question,
Only God knows why
I’m just jealous of the angels
Around the throne tonight

You always made my troubles feel so small
And you were always there to catch me when I’d fall
In a world where heroes come and go
Well God just took the only one I know
So I’ll hold you as close as I can
Longing for the day, when I see your face again
But until then

God must need another angel
Around the throne tonight
Your love lives on inside of me
And I will hold on tight
It’s not my place to question
Only God knows why
I’m just jealous of the angels
Around the throne tonight

Singin’ hallelujah
I’m just jealous of the angels
Around the throne


June 13, 1978 – August 24, 2017



Something to think about…

I wanted to cry so badly for not buying more souvenirs and things for my friends and office mates. It didn’t feel enough. I so wanted to throw a tantrum for not getting that Sony Walkman Waterproof which was way cheaper in Bahrain than here in the Philippines. I don’t know, I guess I’m just too sleep deprived and homesick that the brat in me wants to get her way.

Then I came back to my senses and told myself, “It’s the thought that counts and that I don’t really need the Sony Walkman anyway.”

As soon as my eyes went back to reading the work assigned to me I saw this and now I feel better:

Paul’s description of the last days in 2 Timothy 3:1-9 reveals that the flesh will
dominate many believers’ lives. They will be self-centered, proud, and lovers of
pleasure instead of lovers of God. The way to avoid falling into this trap is to follow
the Holy Spirit’s leading. This means learning to say no to the world’s ways
and not following your flesh—what you want, what you think, and how you feel.