What Am I into?

Since the dawn of this new virus that left us all staying at home while others fight for their lives, I’ve been trying to learn and discover more about what I can do to ease my mental stress because the outside world is so toxic for me right now.

So far, most Filipinos are resorting to Korean Dramas, we did too in the first month. I even got obsessed into crushing on this Korean actor Park Seo Joon. I always liked him since I watched his Kdrama Fight For My Way back in 2017 but not this way where I literally watched most, if not all of his dramas, even his variety show guestings and interviews. Gosh.


I just stopped watching him when I got back into watching Running Man and saw Lee Kwang Soo again, my all-time crush. lol


So yeah, the first one was all Korean Dramas, then the second month was a mix of Netflix and Korean Variety shows, then now it’s just back to American shows and movies.

Anyway, other stuff I’ve been into would be learning a little bit of Korean. Just so I could understand a little bit of what is flashed on the screen when watching Korean variety shows and understand a few of their words. Now I know their alphabet somehow and some common words or phrases.

Another thing I got into would be learning Baybayin, the pre-colonial writing system of the Filipinos. That’s something I never thought I’d get into because I always thought that Baybayin is kind of too… hipster? or unnecessary? I don’t know. Sorry if I thought that but yeah, I’m learning it somehow just so I know.


I actually realized how much of a hypocrite I am for learning other Foreign writing systems like Korean, Japanese and Arabic when I don’t even want to know my native one. So there, I know it now. It’s pretty easy since all you have to memorize are just the symbols or characters because it’s basically still the Filipino Alphabet.

Other interests I had were listening to Podcasts and watching videos about the following:

  • Unexplained Mysteries = Dyatlov Pass, Overtoun Bridge, Winchester Mansion, Sudden Savant Syndrome, The Silent Twins
  • Serial Killers = Ed Kemper, Rodney Alcala, Gary Ray Bowles, Robert Lee Yates, Jeffrey Dahmer, David Joseph Carpenter, Dana Sue Gray
  • Dictators = Genghis Khan, Adolf Hitler, Joseph Stalin, North Korea’s Kims
  • English Royalty = Bloody Mary, Elizabeth I, Marie Antoinette
  • E-Books

That’s all Snitches!

January 2020

Australian Bush Fires

  • Breaks my heart seeing all those innocent animals lose their habitat. I felt so helpless and hopeless when it was happening. All I could do was pray and spread awareness about it.4000

Iran-USA War

  • Got me worried because my Dad still works in the Middle East although I kinda knew that most likely this will not push through. Good thing it really didn’t.

Ukrainian Plane crash killing 176 Passengers

  • Tragic. No survivors. Sad.

Taal Volcano Eruption

  • Got me so paranoid because the ash fall reached Metro Manila and we have a house in Calamba, Laguna which is pretty much closer to Taal, Batangas. I was thinking about the effect of the Mt. Pinatubo eruption in the 90s even if I wasn’t around at the time but it sure did bury a lot of lives and houses in lahar.
  • I feel bad for the evacuees especially the animals that got left behind. Good thing people gathered and helped out in rescuing the animals and gave out relief goods to the evacuees.
  • Our mountaineering group, AKAP Mountaineers was able to give out relief goods to some evacuees who got located in Calamba, Laguna. Thanks to Liz, my SIL, for wishing to do that good deed for her birthday.


Kobe Bryant, daughter Gianna and 7 other killed in a helicopter crash

  • Tragic indeed. Made the world sad as it is. It was bad that Kobe was involved but it got worse when they found out that he was with his daughter and some of her team mates. They still had a bright future ahead of them and it was cut short because of the tragedy.
  • I deem myself lucky because I was able to watch Kobe Bryant play in his last season at the Staples Center in 2015.


Novel Corona Virus

  • Originated from Wuhan, China and is now spreading in several countries. It is said that it started from Chinese people eating bats. As you know, Chinese people are notorious for eating exotic food and I guess this pretty much results from doing that.
  • I hope the infected people get cured and that it would stop spreading to other countries and the number of those getting infected will not increase.

On that note, hopefully all the bad news would stop in January because we’ve all had enough of it. I literally cried even before Kobe Bryant died coz I truly felt useless with all these calamities going on and I couldn’t do anything. I just exist.

Then again, who am I to say that bad things won’t ever happen anymore. I guess we should all just be prepared for anything and everything at anytime.



Disclaimer: Photos are not mine.

2018 Recap

January – UAE and Bahrain


Abu Dhabi, UAE



February – Mt. Daraitan with AKAP Mountaineers

March – Mt. Ugo with AKAP Mountaineers (Uncle Reuel’s first climb).


Mt. Ugo Summit

April – Mama’s 60th Birthday



May – PSB Reunion with Kate Rivera, Paulo and Avie.

– Meet up with CEU MedTech classmate Andrea “Dia” Telan after so many years.

June – School donation in Cuyapo with AKAP Mountaineers

July – Villa Escudero with Kuya Alex, Ate Steph and Ciana

– Golden Wedding Anniversary of In-Laws


Hotel ni Among, Vigan City

– Kitchie passed away (11yrs old)



– Watched Celine Dion concert with Mama (MOA Arena)


Celine Dion at MOA Arena

August – Kuya Melgar passed away.

September – Ryo’s 1st birthday (Jollibee, Vigan)

– Alvin and Rachel’s wedding (Gazebo Royale)

October – Watched Lea Salonga’s 40th Anniversary concert with Kim and Ley on my                            birthday!

November – Watched the musical “The Waitress” with Kim and her friends.

– Singapore and Malaysia


Batu Caves, Malaysia

– Watched AARON CARTER with Ley


Aaron Carter at New Frontier Theatre

– Mt. BatoLusong with AKAP Mountaineers

– Baguio with Papa, Auntie Nedie, Uncle Reuel and Mark Jayson

December – Mama’s cataract surgery

– Taipei, Taiwan with De Panos and JavaLizRyo


Taipei 101, Taiwan


Forever grateful for another year well spent!


August News

We haven’t even reached the 1st death anniversary of my sister in law, we lost another family member again. This time, it’s a very close cousin from Steve’s Father side, Kuya Melgar.

I’m really annoyed at this point because we were all supposed to see each other in two days, TWO DAYS. It would’ve been a happy celebration of his niece’s 16th birthday. I was already expecting a lot of laughter and added fun memories. We even planned a surprise bowling game after the party for him. I was looking forward to that day like any normal exciting family day actually.

Then this happens. SUCKS. He had a heart attack, revived twice but didn’t make it.

I haven’t fully cried my eyes out just yet because it hasn’t sunk in until I see him. I worry about his wife, Ate Lennie and his sons, Ransel and Jayjay, but I know they’ll get by.

Although he has accomplished a lot in his lifetime and has told us his life stories, even about the Fortuna family tree during our long drives to Ilocos and meet ups wherever, it’s just sad to know once again that he won’t be with us in the future. It’s the actual reason for grieving, missing the presence of the person.


Steve, Kuya Melgar and Ate Lennie



I’m not even done grieving for the loss of my first dog here in Philippines, my Kitchie love. Although I kinda expected her passing would be anytime soon coz she’s old already so I’m at peace when my Mom told me about it. I even dreamt of her days after I found out that she died. My dream was she came down a staircase and went licking my face with her ever bright smile. Then I hugged her in my dream and cried till I woke up. I wasn’t crying when I woke up though, which meant I’m at peace wherever she’s at. I usually wake up crying when I cry in my dream especially these past few months. Anyway, I’m grateful for her life and the time I spent with her. She was a gift from Steve and she died at 11 human years old.

S/W Ver: 85.9B.D0R

My KITCHIE love.

So right now, I don’t know what to feel about anything and anyone. I guess I’ll never get over this type of news. Everyone will eventually leave this place. Where you end up in the after life is up to you, just make sure to make your journey worth it.

For all we know right now, or as how we’d like to believe, we gained new angels watching over us once again.

It’s February already!

Whoah! How time flies by soooo fast! It was just December the other day and now it’s February going on Valentine’s Day again.

Anyway, I feel like time is running out on me. I just have this feeling like I want to do so many things but I’ve got very little time and I’m actually wasting all of it. I don’t know.

This month, I might go back to working again. After quitting my last job in 2015, I thought I won’t ever apply for a job again. But somehow I did, I originally didn’t expect them to contact me for an interview but they did. I passed two interviews now and just waiting when I’m going to start.

The job post said it is project based and that I will have to do most of it home-based but during the interviews, they were subtly asking that they would prefer if I report to the office as often as possible and that I should be ready in 6 months to a year’s time for a regular scheduled job.

The company’s a stable one, I’m sure of it. It’s not a start-up with a provincial rate, nor is it a pioneer company managed by one family and it’s not in publishing this time.

It’s one of the top insurance companies in the world and I doubt they’ll run out of money. I just hope their offer to me is good. Good enough for me to stay and save money for my future plans. That’s all I ask. Then again, for opportunities like these coming my way, I’m forever grateful.


Utterly Engaged

Found this in the drafts.

October 20, 2013


The Proposal

Steve is sweet but not mushy sweet. He’s not the kind with awesome well-planned surprises. He will just surprise you the simplest way he could or maybe even not, but that’s the way he is.

Anyway, the proposal happened on my birthday, while celebrating at my friend Paulo’s house, I was eating chicken from a YellowCab delivery with my hands and there he knelt and asked the question.

So I was there, sitting and dumbfounded, asking if he’s serious and immediately looked at my greasy fingers and figured how would he put that ring with my hands all greasy?! Oh well, so he did and I said Yes.

He looked nervous alright because he intended to actually ask while celebrating at the house with most of his siblings around. Guess his shyness got the better of him.

The Ring

The ring is really pretty, not your typical one stone white gold ring. I was surprised that it was gold and had little stones on the side. Steve said he designed it himself. Though the actual diamond is smaller than a karat, it was just appropriate for me to wear in the Philippines, not too flashy but still elegant. I love it!


Never in my life did I think I would be engaged, let alone get married someday. I always pictured myself growing old single, an old maid or probably have a child from a failed relationship then struggling to survive and put my child to school or travel if I didn’t have any child but have a good enough career and then live with lots of dogs.

Truly, God wants my life the other way around. Instead, I got into a long term relationship and here we are engaged to be married. Certainly He gave me much more than what I expected my life to be. God blessed me so much to actually have a normal life, not the kind that still turns heads one way or the other.

I know there will be struggles along the way but I’m sure glad to have someone and be someone’s other half so we can get through life’s ups and downs. Celebrate life and be each other’s wall when things don’t go as well.

Again, Forever Grateful

2013 Highlights

– Hong Kong/Macau Trip with Steve and his family

– Fainting while hiking a small mountain in Cuyapo, Nueva Ecija (lesson learned: Breathe!!!)

– Zambales Trip

– Ilocos Trip with my Dad

– Mount Pulag Climb

– 10k Milo Marathon

– Bali Oasis Condo

– Losing Tantan 😦

– Marriage proposal on my Birthday

– Mike and Maricris’ Wedding

– JR and Marianne’s Wedding

– USA Trip: Los Angeles, San Diego, San Jose, San Francisco, Oregon

– Snow Experience for the first time!!!

– Reuniting with my best friends Gena and Kate and meeting new friends in the US

– Gena and Rich’s Wedding, being Gena’s Maid of Honor

– Spending New Year’s Eve on the plane back to Manila


Another Loss, Another Gain

I gained another angel last August 26, 2013. This happened when our neighbor, who’s a police shot one of my dogs to his death just because my dog tried to “threaten” him behind our house gates. I don’t believe his term though since he was behind our gates and my dog fell like one foot behind it after he got shot.

In all ways our neighbor gets the blame for he is in no position to do such a thing even if my dog bit his daughter the night before. Besides, it’s his daughter’s fault because she climbed our Bayabas/Guava tree on our front yard and got her foot stuck in our grills. As a guard dog, it is only instinct that my dog, Tantan, would defend his territory. Even so, it’s understood for me to take charge of their expenses since the child was bitten by my dog but with what my neighbor did, I called it quits. He was off duty and with no reason to use his gun and put justice into his hands to take an innocent life. All cases point to them, trespassing, abuse of authority plus violation of the animal welfare act.

Every now and then I still blame myself for not being there but I guess it’s part of the grieving phase. I didn’t cry much but I had my moments. I am truly grateful for my dog’s service to our family and God knows how much I treasure my pets. I love them so much. Even more than humans.

I’ve grown attached to my pet dogs because I’m an only child and pets are the only ones who are always there for me when no one else will. Dogs will never judge you, they will always be loyal and faithful and they’ll never pretend to show what they feel. I’d say they’re even better than humans.

The Lord will take care of the offender and I’m sure he will learn his lesson the hard way.


I will forever miss you Tantan. I will always remember you as the sweet and quiet one who will always stay in the corner. You loved drinking water so much no matter how weak you are when you got your rabies shots. You wouldn’t eat standing up which looked adorable and you never started a fight with the others. Thank you for the 6yrs you’ve been with us. I love you.


Glee Star Cory Monteith’s Untimely Death

I stopped watching every episode of Glee from Season 3. I don’t know, I guess they don’t get my tickle anymore. I still anticipate their song performances in the episodes especially when it’s very much talked about.

The last episode I watched was “I Do” of Season 4, and I even loved the song number of “We’ve Got Tonight”.

Anyhoo, this July 13, 2013, one of the major characters of the show passed away in his hotel room in Vancouver, Canada. He was 31, and the cause of death is apparently an overdose of heroin and alcohol since he came from a night of partying with friends.


Cory Monteith, better known as Finn Hudson in the series. Tall, sweet looking canadian guy, who’s also engaged to his on/off Glee co-star love interest Lea Michele. They were to get married in two weeks when he died. Just imagine what Lea is going through right now. She’s mention that she never felt a time when Cory was not her boyfriend, that he always made her feel like she’s the luckiest girl in the world. Indeed she was.


I’d say that Cory has lived a full life in spite of his early passing. In his short stay in this world he has influenced more people than any ordinary person could ever have. He made a girl feel well loved, he wasn’t afraid to admit his drug addiction since his teenage years and he said it’s okay to be the underdog. It’s just sad how his life ended.

As for Lea Michele, i’m pretty sure Cory also loved her as much. Sad reality is she has to face the future without him. There’s definitely something better in store for her. God wouldn’t let her be sad for long. Cory just needs to be that one memorable chapter in her life.

Make sure to leave this world with a life well-lived.