I am not Alone

I don’t think anyone knows how alone I feel.

Same way that I don’t understand how alone others feel when they say they are.

Others have siblings, they have parents within reach whom they can console and ask for advice anytime.

They have complete family photos.

They have close relatives they can confide with.

They have friends they can reach to anytime.

I have issues with my parents.

My friends have issues of their own.

My partner doesn’t know how to console me.

I don’t know what I’m going through. I don’t know what kind of depression this is or why I am even going through this.

There are lots of people going through something way worse I know.

I know I can always pray. I always do, but the feeling just lingers. The emotions are just here for now.

I am writing this to make myself feel better. I don’t know if I will feel better after this.

I mask myself with smiles and laughter, jokes and positivity, optimism and meditation, but the feeling of loneliness just doesn’t go away.

We’ll see about this in the future.